the evil me

happy Chinese new year to all Chinese peoples and to all my friends! may this year bring us a lot of luck and prosperity!

tahun ni, tak pergi beraye rumah kawan-kawan mak..dulu mase kecik ade la jugak pergi..dapat ang pau, limau..yang best diorang sediakan makanan khas untuk muslim..terharu betul..

semalam akak ajak kuar, bukan pergi shopping..tapi pi ambik gambar sempena CNY.
so, pergi la ke JJ dengan jalan sesak..ade pulak orang melayu bawak kereta macam orang mabuk~ ish3...risau den kene langgar..ade jugak yang kurang kesabaran...hon2 kereta depan even dah tahu jalan jam..iskk..iskkk...sedih aku tengok...tolong la..sempena CNY ni mari lah kite lebih berhati-hati...pandu cermat jiwa selamat ok~..*ayat ni dah basi ke?~ T.T

plan 1st nak gi JJ tapi singgah tesco dulu..mase pergi tesco, botak nak beli kasut tali pulak..dia sangat jeles kat aye tak dapat kasut tali tahun ni..mak tak bagi..ape lagi, dia memberontak lalu merajukkan diri...bawak troli perlahan cam pengantin jalan...muke nak ketat cam ah long..pekak kan diri bile orang panggil..

rase nak lempang je dia..tapi akak dia sorang lagi duduk pujuk..1st, suruh botak ambik ape-ape kopok dia nak..dia ambik Mr kentang..so, ingat merajuk dia dah hilang ..tapi belom lagi..kemudian ody keluar tesco dia bersuare "nak marrybrown"..
argghhhh sudah...akak aku pon layan je..

then makan la marrybrown..mood botak hanye baik selepas kenyang je..grrrrr~...




muke botak yang merajuk..tapi mulut duk kunyah je makanan~..



botak dan Mr kentang





lepas dah kenyang pergi la JJ..botak yang sudah kenyang, duk shuffle sampai ke JJ..tak boleh blah sampai langgar orang...nak marah tak jadi..duk gelak je..aihhh..
bile smpi je, terus pi berebut ambik gambar kat tempat-tempat yang dia hias..sangat lawa..rase nak bawak balik pokok ala-ala sakura tu letak kat depan rumah..















ps:nak pakai cheong sam tak ade..kang pakai tak muat..al maklum, badan gemuk..ishhh3~.dulu slim macam akak aku...ce bayangkan..haha.tahun ni terexcited CNY sbb tahun naga..RRoooAARRRrr...macam tu ke bunyi naga..entah...

finally, I just made my decision at the end of last year..decision about what am i going to do in the future..I got some plan actually..or I can say my hopes.

1st, waiting for SPA..my choices are peg kastam, penguatkuasa, peg sains, RA n pengajar juruxray..but, after thinking back...I only get the job if I pass the exam, then the interview..my uncle said, it's hard now to join gov sector..then i move to 2nd choice..

2nd, become a policewoman or join ATM..i didn't see any advertisement of this until the last week...but my course doesn't available for that post...so heartbreaking~ but luckily, I already choose the other plan

3rd, be a teacher..i already send an application to mara..hoping to get position as a mathematics teacher in some school...but after hearing that government will only take graduates from maktab, GSTT and UPSI to fulfill the empty post..I move my plan to the last plan available..my last hope...


the plan

the only plan left is scholarship on postgraduate diploma of ultrasonograpy..the last resort left..so, after some discussion with my relatives and teacher..they said the same thing "take this one"..so, I continue my study in this field..sounded ridiculous..some friends might think or have said earlier...but for me..it is really a big thing..I didn't get any job interview related to my course..so, I grab every chances left..not to think that i really upset to change my path...taken a course that really different from what i have taken before..but, I think..this is what Allah want me to do..Allah just want to test my faith.. whether, i can succeed or fail the test given..

so, from now on..I don't want my heart fluster again..just keep the faith that Allah knows the best for me..I don't want to get jealous anymore to some of my friends that already got a job in our field of study.when hearing the news that they got job already...it is lie if I don't feel slightest jealous toward them even though I really happy that they get a job..so, I brainwash my jealousy thought.so, that what we call luck or fortune.they have better luck than me..

from now on, I need to fully concentrate on study and make sure that I pass all the examination..that not an easy task as i'm not a studious person..I always study at very last minutes before..and I need to change that attitude..so, please pray for me..that I can change my attitude and pass the exam...


ps: for all my friends that already got a job..congratulation!! *with sincere feeling



Firman Allah, “Katakanlah : “Hai hamba-hamba-Ku yang melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri, janganlah kamu berputus asa dari Rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa semuanya. Sesungguhnya, Dia-lah yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.”(Surah Az Zumar:53)

conclusion, never lose hope~